Maybe you have noticed?

II am not really loosing weight. It is totally my fault (well ok I am placing a little blame on my PCOS- but just a little.)

This week I made goals

80 oz of water a day 

Walk 9 miles this week.

No buying junk food

These are small goals but I think these will help me achieve weight loss and not overwhelm me! 

I'd secretly like to keep my calories around 1700- but maybe that'll be my goal for next week! 

^ our first attempt at the hip.. We are still working on it! :)

Wednesday weigh in

This post was for last week.. May 22nd. Lol. It never published! So looks like I lost .6 lbs from last week. 

Hey look I'm getting more timely with my weigh in posts!! Yay!! :)

218 today. Which yay, but can I just lose 20 lbs already! Man! Haha. 

I am getting good at drinking water again (hallelujah!) I used to have no problem drinking 70 ounces. But I fell off that wagon and it was a struggle to get back on. It's slowly returning. 

I notice a difference in my weight on weeks I walk. That is always encouraging. I hope to make my walks an every day routine, but I have an almost 5 month old and I watch my niece- a 4 month old. And I'm not smooth transitioning into things! 

Every day I'm learning about how to run my day a little bit smoother! I have the girls morning routine down, unfortunately that pretty much leaves me no time for exercise or housework but the girls are happy and its not chaotic. So I can't complain. 

I am ready to be thin though! Can you just unzip this fat suit! If only right!? 

I am proud I only "gained" 20 lbs during pregnancy. I actually gained 48 but lost 28 within 9 days of post partum- so that doesn't count as true weight in my book. 

I am working on a daily list to give myself to make sure I accomplish what I want each day. I thrive off lists and I love checking things off. I think that will help my gracefulness each day! 

Alright we I'm going back to bed now that Adeline is done nursing 

Wednesday weigh in

Posting my Wednesday weigh in on a Wednesday what's wrong with me! Haha! I'm all organized! 

217.4!! Down .8! Ill take it!! Now if I can keep this streak up! Which I know I can, it's just doing it. 

 I was going through old photos- and I wanna lose weight I looked great! 40 lbs ago! But baby steps. Today I took a 2.25 mile walk. I'm working on 80 ounces of water for the day. I had pancakes for breakfast and popcorn for lunch.. So that's not the best- but I don't need perfection, improvement is really what I need! I'm working on making sure I'm hungry before I eat. I've always heard losing weight is 80% diet and 20% exercise. So my main focus will be diet. 

I am really trying hard not to go crazy and be realistic- because going all crazy doesn't work for me. So small baby steps, imperfections and pancakes and popcorn once in a while it is!

Wanna know something crazy?

I cannot wait to be in labor and deliver a child again! Seriously. I think I am insane. I had such a wonderful birth experience I can't wait to do it again. I can't wait to see how different/similar it is.

I am hoping a few things are different. I was on bed rest the last 3 weeks of my pregnancy, I am hoping that won't be the case this time. I hope to labor at home for as long as possible next time. I hope instead of having a 23 hour labor, it will be 13 hours or less. I made it 15 hours naturally with pitocin with Adeline. I hope to not need pitocin and to have it be less than 15 hours! I got to 7 CM dilated and wanted to epidural and was scared they wouldn't give it to me... I was so tired and thought I was ripping into two. I felt everything while pushing, but since I did have the epidural I want to know if I really did feel everything, and if it was toned down at all, because it SURE didn't feel like it. Even though I want a few things to be different with my next delivery, I can't wait! Even if I get an epidural and sleep through the whole thing. I just had an amazing experience. I really bonded with Jordan (my husband) during labor, and delivering a child. WOW. I mean WHAT A GIFT FROM GOD!!!  AMAZING! I don't know when I want to have another, we aren't there yet, I can wait to be pregnant again and I can wait to have those sleepless nights again, but labor and delivery... I am so excited for! haha. yes, I am a nut job. 

Oh and don't get me wrong, pregnancy was amazing and having a child is BEYOND amazing, I just am not ready to do those parts again :)