The first day I worked out at the gym I was really insecure, felt like I didn't belong, I was afraid to work up too much of a sweat afraid my fat would jiggle too much, afraid people would judge me.
Today was much better. I went in, was a lot more confident. It was forced confidence but confidence non the less. I hopped on the treadmill, warmed up, ran a pathetic amount, walked and then moved on to the weight machines.
I can't wait until I can see a difference! I feel like my day is a little longer now since going to the gym (I know.. its only been two days! haha)
I am going to make this a habit. I am going to make this our ritual. This is a lifestyle change. (note to self: repeat until you believe)
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What do I want to accomplish by going to the gym?
1. Most importantly, self confidence. My self confidence has never been so low. And I want it back. I can't stand how insecure I am!! If someone looks at me I want to melt into the wall! And that is not who I am. I love to laugh, I love to have fun! I used to enjoy being the center of attention. Now all I think is "oh I bet they think she has gotten so fat." I want to be comfortable in my own skin and be confident again.
2. Get to wedding weight!
3. Get fit & healthy
4. Get alone time. I feel that ever since I had Adeline I lost myself in motherhood. I never looked in the mirror. I never took more than 3 seconds to put an outfit together. I don't really ever go anywhere without Adeline. So I think going to the gym working on myself and getting alone time will be great for me! :)